The night of Christmas Eve or I should say Christmas morning, Nick proposed! It was such a surreal experience. I love those moments in life where I am just completely giddy and in disbelief that something is actually happening in the present moment. It’s like is this really happening to me? Am I dreaming because there’s no way something I’ve dreamed about for so long is actually happening right now!!!
Ari, Nick and I went to midnight mass and afterwards we knelt down by the nativity scene to say a prayer and he took my hand, which didn’t seem strange because he usually touches my hands, but this time he was trying to put something on my finger.
In my mind I always imagined that I would cry and give a big speech to the man I love when he proposed but, I just could not stop smiling. There were no tears and since it was the middle of the night I had to wait until morning to call or text anyone, and there was something beautiful in that. I had this amazing happy secret all to Nick and myself (Ari too but she was in dream mode) for an entire night. I couldn’t even sleep that night I was so happy.
It is strange to think of how fragile the timing was when we met. What would have happened if I didn’t look up? Or why did we not meet sooner? I was in Naples visiting family for the greater portion of my adult life… Were we walking down the wrong aisle in the grocery store? I have a feeling that we met at the perfect time though and that everything we went through separately made us perfect for each other now. Growing up apart and all that we have gone through apart I’m sure made us both more compassionate, understanding, considerate and most of all appreciative. I admire him so much for so many different reasons. I thank God for him everyday. I could go on and on about my love for him so I will stop!
Anyway, now we get to plan our wedding and live in this beautiful anticipation for the next several months. The planning and the anticipation is so much fun and I realize it will go by so fast so I’m trying to enjoy it!